peace on earth and goodwill towards men

48 days until christmas.
there is nothing in this world that makes me happier than christmas.
i am putting aside the hatred i have towards the paternal side of my family for the sake of the overall love and compassion i have towards every living being.
I have always always always loved christmas.
listening to elvis while making sugar cookies with my brother and decorating the tree with the ornaments my mom bought years and years ago during her and her friend's "christmas hags" phase. we've had the same ornaments my whole life, save for a select few that didn't make it or that have been added over the years.
the same little elves that cling to piney tree branches, the same blonde angel that sits atop the tree, the little red wooden cardinals, Ren and Stimpy hanging out of stockings on a mantel (that's the heaviest ornament, aside from Pikachu in a santa hat. my daddy has silly taste in things.)
watching "grandma got run over by a reindeer", "pacman's christmas", "jetsons christmas", "flintstones christmas", "olive the other reindeer" christmas specials of everything with elvis presley humming "santa bring my baby back to me" and "i'll be home for christmas"
god i'm hearing it now in my head and i'm so happy i want to cry.

waking up and going downstairs to see all of that stuff under the tree. regardless of whether or not i'll like it, there it is, waiting to surprise me.
i've always loved christmas.
i have such a profound love for holidays in general.
but christmas is the best of them all.

i know this is so so so early.

the morning after Obama was elected, i walked down to Rite Aid. I already had a renewed sense of optimism due to this country (our country, my country. finally, i am proud to call you my country) proving it's ability to do something right. the second i saw the seasonal aisle was devoid of all halloween items and was now filled to the brim with Christmas paraphernalia, I was ecstatic.

I start my new job tomorrow.
I love you all so much.

christmas '07

My body is not property of the government

I have never had an abortion.
I hope I can go through life with having as little abortions as possible.
And I take steps to make sure I don't need one
BUT
If I do need one, then goddammit, I'm getting one.
I am NOT going to have a child if it means forsaking my dreams at an early age.


"Well what about putting it up for adoption?"

NO. That means there is still a child somewhere in the world that I gave birth to that will most likely hate me without ever having met me. Regardless of whether I have ever met the baby, I am still a parent.

"You made your own bed, so now you lie in it"

NO. That may be your standards and practices, but not mine.

"Abortion is murder!"

So is eating meat, supporting the war, and doing anything to rub off skin cells, as every cell in your body is a potential child.


If you need any reason, any ONE REASON to NOT vote for the McCain/Palin ticket (avid anti-abortion supporters), it is this:

IF YOU ARE READING THIS, YOU MOST LIKELY CARE ENOUGH ABOUT ME TO NOT WANT TO SEE ME UNHAPPY.
IF I HAD A CHILD, I CAN GUARANTEE YOU I WOULD COMMIT SUICIDE WITHIN THE FIRST 2 MONTHS.



ABORTION IS ONE'S RIGHT
I AM PRO-CHOICE