WHOEVER WROTE THIS IN MY MYSPACE TRUTH BOX, PLEASE STEP FORWARD:
"you have more intelligence creativity and curiosity about the world in your little pinky than most people have in their entire body for a lifetime so what i can't understand is why are you depressed? at least i think you're depressed because you're taking that antidepressant zoloft. if you're not sexually active then why would you take yaz. i'm not being nosy and i don't know your situation so i'm not trying to tell you what to do. this is just how it looked to me."
The person who wrote this seems to know me somewhat personally.
Just for the record, yes, I AM what you would call "sexually active" (although somewhat sexually deprived) and I am depressed for many reasons, including the fact that I have an inability to cope with the stressors of day-to-day life, parental issues, and a deep-seated incurable loneliness.
Whoever wrote that, does that answer your question?
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
To write HYPOCRISY on her arms
If there's one thing I really, simply can NOT stand, it is this new-fangled non-profit
"To Write Love On Her Arms"
There is absolutely NOTHING more hypocritical than this new "movement" (except for, maybe, "pro-lifers")
It's a nice idea and all, but so was communism, and look how that turned out.
The fact is that people can not love without compassion. TWLOHA is based off of loving people you don't know, for the sole reason that it might make them feel better if they are a victim of depression. Basically saying "Oh, you're not special to me at all, but you are sad and you hurt yourself so I'm going to love you as equally as I love everyone else who hurts themselves even though I don't care about you at all and refuse to see the person past the depression." I don't know about you, Opie, but if someone were to say they love me (and millions of others) without even caring about me, it would make me feel pretty insignificant.
COMPASSION is what we are lacking. We are lacking the ability to sympathize with someone's personal situation, we do not even try to put ourselves in that person's (or animal, as the case may be) position. We only listen to the juicy part of the story, i.e. "And then my stepdaddy raped me" in order to get a quick and easy (but perhaps not full) understanding of a person's life. Rarely do we ask, "How did you feel after that? What do you remember about that? What was life like after that?" because most of us are self-centered and don't want to sit through someone's explanation.
There are the standard feelings one gets after they've been abused in some way. Decieved, hurt, worthless. But everyone has different feelings on different things. There is NO way to completely know how a person felt in that moment of pain, but you can at least TRY to understand.
TWLOHA, take note: there is no way to love without compassion and sympathy. Even if you utterly loathe someone, it is still possible to maintain compassion for them. And that is what is important.
And now, for the really hypocritical part:
TWLOHA is mainly endorsed by bands who write songs about depression and wanting to die.
BUT, it seems as though they think the point gets across as long as they wear shirts that say "TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS" and "LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT" and say "Don't kill yourself! We love you!"
That is not good enough. True, a happy song will not change the world, but I have had experiences in which a pretty song with happy lyrics makes me feel utterly euphoric. It is worth penning a song that makes you more than angry or sad, bands of today. At least be sincere in what you write. No one will know how you really feel if what you endorse is the polar opposite of what you write about.
Religion should also not be advertised as the most powerful depression cure. Many people (including yours truly) utterly detest religion and are much better off without the whole concept of "God". A major aspect of TWLOHA is God, Christ and prayer. According to the story on which TWLOHA is founded on, the character in peril is saved from herself, mostly by the power of Christ and prayer. This is nonsense. In my opinion, religion is about as comforting as being stranded alone in the desert. The entire concept of having to follow by an invisible being's rules (many of these rules are in human nature) in order to gain eternal bliss, I think, is cruel and unjust.
But I digress, TWLOHA's target audience is supposedly all people who are victims of self harm, depression and suicidal thoughts. But what if not all of this audience is not Christian? Are they then left to fend for themselves until they find God? This is utterly unfair and deeply saddening.
For many years I, personally, tried to find God. Simply nothing I did could bring me to honestly belief what I was trying to force down my own throat. I was miserable, and it was then that I realized that part of why I was so sad was because that I was wearing a mask of faith. It was not the overwhelming joy I had seen others become taken by. I was much happier with my atheistic ways, and still am today. If I am sad, I do not look to an uncertain entity for relief, I look to myself, my one and only self, for I am the ONLY person I know who can help myself. It is this way with everyone, and it is disgusting that ANY "benevolent" organization would try and claim this as untrue.
And so, in conclusion, dear reader: if you really care for people with depression, you will realize that simply buying a trendy tee-shirt to fund a corrupt, hypocritical organization is not NEARLY enough. Compassion is what we need, not generic, mass-produced "love".
One can not rely on an organization to make them love others. One can only rely on themselves. For ANYTHING.
"To Write Love On Her Arms"
There is absolutely NOTHING more hypocritical than this new "movement" (except for, maybe, "pro-lifers")
It's a nice idea and all, but so was communism, and look how that turned out.
The fact is that people can not love without compassion. TWLOHA is based off of loving people you don't know, for the sole reason that it might make them feel better if they are a victim of depression. Basically saying "Oh, you're not special to me at all, but you are sad and you hurt yourself so I'm going to love you as equally as I love everyone else who hurts themselves even though I don't care about you at all and refuse to see the person past the depression." I don't know about you, Opie, but if someone were to say they love me (and millions of others) without even caring about me, it would make me feel pretty insignificant.
COMPASSION is what we are lacking. We are lacking the ability to sympathize with someone's personal situation, we do not even try to put ourselves in that person's (or animal, as the case may be) position. We only listen to the juicy part of the story, i.e. "And then my stepdaddy raped me" in order to get a quick and easy (but perhaps not full) understanding of a person's life. Rarely do we ask, "How did you feel after that? What do you remember about that? What was life like after that?" because most of us are self-centered and don't want to sit through someone's explanation.
There are the standard feelings one gets after they've been abused in some way. Decieved, hurt, worthless. But everyone has different feelings on different things. There is NO way to completely know how a person felt in that moment of pain, but you can at least TRY to understand.
TWLOHA, take note: there is no way to love without compassion and sympathy. Even if you utterly loathe someone, it is still possible to maintain compassion for them. And that is what is important.
And now, for the really hypocritical part:
TWLOHA is mainly endorsed by bands who write songs about depression and wanting to die.
BUT, it seems as though they think the point gets across as long as they wear shirts that say "TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS" and "LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT" and say "Don't kill yourself! We love you!"
That is not good enough. True, a happy song will not change the world, but I have had experiences in which a pretty song with happy lyrics makes me feel utterly euphoric. It is worth penning a song that makes you more than angry or sad, bands of today. At least be sincere in what you write. No one will know how you really feel if what you endorse is the polar opposite of what you write about.
Religion should also not be advertised as the most powerful depression cure. Many people (including yours truly) utterly detest religion and are much better off without the whole concept of "God". A major aspect of TWLOHA is God, Christ and prayer. According to the story on which TWLOHA is founded on, the character in peril is saved from herself, mostly by the power of Christ and prayer. This is nonsense. In my opinion, religion is about as comforting as being stranded alone in the desert. The entire concept of having to follow by an invisible being's rules (many of these rules are in human nature) in order to gain eternal bliss, I think, is cruel and unjust.
But I digress, TWLOHA's target audience is supposedly all people who are victims of self harm, depression and suicidal thoughts. But what if not all of this audience is not Christian? Are they then left to fend for themselves until they find God? This is utterly unfair and deeply saddening.
For many years I, personally, tried to find God. Simply nothing I did could bring me to honestly belief what I was trying to force down my own throat. I was miserable, and it was then that I realized that part of why I was so sad was because that I was wearing a mask of faith. It was not the overwhelming joy I had seen others become taken by. I was much happier with my atheistic ways, and still am today. If I am sad, I do not look to an uncertain entity for relief, I look to myself, my one and only self, for I am the ONLY person I know who can help myself. It is this way with everyone, and it is disgusting that ANY "benevolent" organization would try and claim this as untrue.
And so, in conclusion, dear reader: if you really care for people with depression, you will realize that simply buying a trendy tee-shirt to fund a corrupt, hypocritical organization is not NEARLY enough. Compassion is what we need, not generic, mass-produced "love".
One can not rely on an organization to make them love others. One can only rely on themselves. For ANYTHING.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
I wrote this in my diary in my sleep last night. Not even kidding.
I woke up this morning and I read my diary (which was wide open)
and I had apparently written it in my sleep.
I don't remember writing it and the handwriting was incredibly sloppy
"I used to not take any pills
and I thought everything was okay.
Now I take at least six pills for different things
every day.
What has happened to me?
Am I going to die?"
In other news, The Cure is charging $75 for a stadium show.
It's not worth it.
I'm going to see Mission Of Burma for $18 and Circle Jerks for $13
Speaking of Mission Of Burma
The singer, Roger Miller, used to have a band called Sproton Layer
which is insane psychadelic stuff.
I recently got a vinyl copy of
With Magnetic Fields Disrupted
which is very good
and I highly recommend it
if you can find it.
<3
P.S. I take Zoloft, 4 green tea supplements, and Yaz every day. And some Ibuprofen if need be.
and I had apparently written it in my sleep.
I don't remember writing it and the handwriting was incredibly sloppy
"I used to not take any pills
and I thought everything was okay.
Now I take at least six pills for different things
every day.
What has happened to me?
Am I going to die?"
In other news, The Cure is charging $75 for a stadium show.
It's not worth it.
I'm going to see Mission Of Burma for $18 and Circle Jerks for $13
Speaking of Mission Of Burma
The singer, Roger Miller, used to have a band called Sproton Layer
which is insane psychadelic stuff.
I recently got a vinyl copy of
With Magnetic Fields Disrupted
which is very good
and I highly recommend it
if you can find it.
<3
P.S. I take Zoloft, 4 green tea supplements, and Yaz every day. And some Ibuprofen if need be.
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